What a May

Whoa, May was jam packed with work activities, family event, and fun! June will be slowing down (thankfully) and I am looking forward to taking a little break. But as it is June as I am writing this, I don’t know how restful it will be!

A very busy week at work coordinating meetings and events
Donating bags of clothes that I’ve out grown, don’t look good on my, an/or make me feel like sh*t*
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Started seeing a dietitian for guidance on how to navigate what I see/here about “diet-culture”
Spent time at my parents house
Cinco de Mayo – LOTS of Tex-Mex (my fave!)
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Attended a gala for my fiance’s job
Mother’s Day
Got my hair done
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Picked out flowers for my wedding
Had our engagement photos taken
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Became a distributor for Young Living Essential Oils
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Closed on our first house!
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New England/Boston trip
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Friend’s wedding
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Memorial Day
Family birthday celebrations

Movies/TV

The Office
When Harry Met Sally
New Girl, Season 6 
(re-watch)
Lady Bird
The Crown, Season 1 (re-watch) & 2

Books

The Soul of the Apostolate by Jean-Baptiste Chautard
Sweet Tooth by Ian McEwan

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Humility in the Stillness

I’m so glad it’s June, actually I’m not. May just felt so long and short at the same time. June means it’s just going to get hotter and hotter (I see you, Texas). My workload changes in the summer. It’s slows down a bit and we go more into planning mode.

This shift can be a good and bad thing. I like to stay busy because it makes me feel productive. I associate productivity with being “good” and it keeps my mind focused/distracted on something besides food or my body.

During times of idleness, when I don’t have anything (task-wise) to-do, I become incredibly anxious. I start over-thinking EVERYTHING, feel like I should be doing something, start stressing, and often turn to food for comfort – the list goes on and on!

Being STILL is something that I am working on in therapy. Learning that there is sheer joy in doing nothing and how I technically am doing “something.” I am resting my body and mind so that it can restore itself, allowing me to make better decisions and feel refreshed. This is a big change from feeling like I’m always running on empty.

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Aromatherapy –  essential oils – have been helping me a lot. By diffusing, using rollers, or adding oils to a carrier oil (think coconut oil + PanAway for muscle aches), I have  found something new to focus my attention on and get excited about and reduce toxins in my body at the same time.

I’ve been using Young Living’s Humility essential oil blend a LOT lately. Most people might be shocked that I am in need of humility because outside I’m quiet and pretty modest. However, on the inside my pride and ego take over… Again, with the desire to feel productive and good, but physically l need to rest and reconnect with myself.

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Along with learning how to enjoy “being still” I am also working on becoming more emotionally balanced so that when I come into slower phases of my life I can enjoy them and live more in the moment.

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, heartfelt compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience – Colossians 3:12

– Em

April Action

I’m late getting this posted because I was having issues uploading photos… It’s fun to look back and remember what happened last month. It was busy, but full of good times with friends and family!

Easter

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I said “yes” to the dress!

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Attended a Gala with my friend

Dog sat for the first time

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Friends’ housewarming party

Ran my PB 5K time

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Went to see Les Miserables at the Dallas Summer Musicals

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Movies/TV

The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt
The Greatest Showman
Patriot’s Day
The Office

Books

The Soul of the Apostolate by Jean-Baptiste Chautard
The Children Act by Ian McEwan

A Memorable March

It’s hard to remember March when it’s the middle of April… But here’s what I got:

My brother and sister-in-law came in from out of town – went country dancin’ and had fun hanging out!
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Musical – On Your Feet
Regional meeting for work, out of town
St. Patrick’s Day – 5K & party
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Dallas Mavericks v. Houston Rockets game
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Started going back to counseling for the fist time since August…
Paul: the Apostle of Christ movie screening – Met Jim Caviezel
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Massage
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Trivia Night Fundraising Event
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Easter Decorating
Musical – Waitress
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Started house hunting!!!

Movies/TV

Fuller House
The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt
Coming to America
Black Panther
Coco
Murder on the Orient Express
Paul: the Apostle of Christ

Books

The Soul of the Apostolate by Jean-Baptiste Chautard
Commonwealth by Ann Patchett

February Fun

January felt like it dragged on for-e-ver, but February went by like a flash! What a mix of travel, work, and play it was. This is a busier season of work for me. I’m looking forward to things slowing down a bit in March so I can get back into my routine and spend more time with friends.

Hawaii (Oahu) for me and J’s first anniversary (separate post coming soon!)

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View from Hotel Room in Waikiki Beach, HI
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Manoa Falls

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One year to the wedding – venue, caterer, photographer, and florist are set!
Valentine’s Day

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Work Delivery

Mardi Gras
Ash Wednesday/beginning of Lent

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Celebrated my Mom’s birthday
Was able to catch up with friends
Touched up my hair

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Conference for work – super busy work schedule

Movies/TV

  • Hart of Dixie
  • Fuller House
  • When We First Met

Books

The Soul of the Apostolatby Jean-Baptiste Chautard
The Light of the World by Elizabeth Alexander
Commonwealth by Ann Patchett

January Gems

Back to work after the holidays = #struggles. I feel like I really hit the ground running and stayed busy with work planning an all-day retreat, volunteer training, and large event almost back to back…

I wasn’t feeling as social during the week and I lost most of my motivation to work out as much. I pretty much felt like kinda a bum all month… I’m still working on settling into a routine, but I’m trying to stay positive – getting enough sleep really helps with this!

COLD weather for this Texas girl

Friends:
Catching up with a friend I hadn’t seen in awhile (mall walking already)
One of my best friend’s birthday dinner
Church retreat group reunion dinner

MLK Day – off work!

Started going to Zumba classes at the gym regularly

First “Marriage Preparation” Course – Constructive Conflict Resolution

Watched J’s brothers play in a tennis tournamen

Dinner with my future sister/brother in-laws and their little boys

Saw “The Color Purple” musical at Fair Park

Went to J’s high school friend’s wedding in College Station

1 year anniversary of meeting my fiance

Movies/TV
The Meyerowitz Stories (New and Selected)
Dunkirk
America’s Sweethearts
Hart of Dixie
Get Out
Fuller House

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Books
The Soul of the Apostolate by Jean-Baptiste Chautard (for work)
The Versions of Us by Laura Barnett
The Light of the World by Elizabeth Alexander

How was your first month of 2018?

Post Holiday Blues

I’ve put off writing this post because I thought this would pass. What is “this”? It is the funk that I’ve found myself in the past 3 weeks that I cannot seem to shake.

It had been a struggle to return to work after having a week and a half off. Time off that was much-needed and for the most part restful (despite a bout of food poisoning before New Years). I thought I was having a hard time adjusting back into a routine because I hadn’t had that much time off consecutively. But as I soon found out, it wasn’t just work that I was having difficulties with.

It has also been harder to find the motivation to visit with friends; I just want to stay in my semi-emo bubble. Even though most of the time I feel better if I get out of the house. I know there is a difference in “alone time,” which beneficial to recharge and being lonely. Lately, though I feel lonely with loved ones and uncomfortable alone.

I have been trying my best to re-frame my thoughts as there is nothing particularly “bad” in my life. I think that’s what bothers me the most – I have so much good in my life, yet I feel blah. This feeling causes me a lot of guilt that perpetuate the cycle.

Slowly, but surely I am trying to shift my focus on the positive or little things that have been going well and thinking of how I can give myself a little more love right now:

  • Making sure that I don’t overdo it on the exercise or food/alcohol
  • Going to Zumba during the week – it’s something new that I look forward to, even though I look ridiculous doing it!
  • Knowing when to stay in vs. go out
  • Going to bed a bit earlier
  • Reading a daily devotional
  • Reading a good book
  • Handlettering
  • Cooking
  • Limiting time on social media
  • Binge-watching a mindless TV show while crocheting
  • Focusing on doing ONE thing at a time
  • Writing a done” lists instead of “to-do” lists so I can see how much progress I’m making (even if it’s just making my bed that day or unloading the dishwasher)

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To be honest, I do feel a bit better already. I am a list maker by nature, and these kind of lists bring me more joy that looming “to-do” lists. I’m also finding that “habit-tacking” lists (exercise, water intake, bedtime, not eating after X time) that often make me feel worse if I don’t stick to my goal. I fixate on what I don’t want to do more. I used need that kind of accountability to reach my goals, but I’m learning that I might have a little bit o a rebel in my after all… 😉

Is it hard for you to transition into post-holiday life?

Do you have any tips or ways you help yourself out of a funk?

2018 – My list(s) for a new year

Planning 2018

My greatest wish for the year: Contentment – stop over-analyzing everything and enjoy the present moment

A thing I’m looking forward to: Travel (Hawaii) and planning my wedding

An important change to make: Being on my phone so much + intuitive eating/exercise

A new experience to try: A spiritual healing event

3 Words to Guide me in 2018

  • Simplify
  • Enjoy
  • Focus

Top 3 Goals for 2018

  • Daily scripture/devotional
  • Increase yoga skill/practice
  • Overall healthier relationship with food & exercise

My Wishes

A book to read: A lot. Goal is 20+ this year!

A movie to watch: The Greatest Showman

A place to visit: Portland, OR

A new skill to learn: Self-defense & become more proficient in Spanish

A thing to buy for myself: New luggage

A kind thing to do for others:  Make “mercy bags” or at least have extra snacks in my car for when I see homeless at the stoplights

#GOALS

For Me:
  • less alcohol & dessert = sugar
  • cook at home more vs. eating out
  • boost my confidence
  • more “self care” time
  • less judgemental
For My Family:
  • visit my parents more
  • call my brother more
  • call grandparents monthly
  • write letters to my grandparents
  • grow closer to my fiance’s family
For Work:
  • be on time/early each day
  • do less “non-work” things (Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest) while at work
  • get to know other people in the building beter
  • less procrastination, more preparation
  • attend networking events and conferences
For My Passions:
  • blog – post regularly and build a following
  • carve out more time for reading
  • reading, crafting
  • re-vamp my Etsy shop
  • de-clutter and donate (EVERYTHING) so I can simplify my life

That really just skims the surface, but using this format was really helpful and thought-provoking. I used the same template as my 2017 year in review post. You can find the templates I used here.

Happy 2018 + planning!

2017 – My year in review

Remembering 2017

Favorite memory of the year: getting engaged (in October) to my awesome fiance, J!

Greatest challenge of the year: Dealing with/overcoming the return of my binging and purging episodes.

An important lesson I’ve learned: Not to judge based on others’ outward appearances and to be more compassionate

The best thing I’ve done: Started trusting myself more, relying less on others’ approval

Top 3 Things I Liked About 2017

  1. Getting a new – job, house (moving out of my parents), friends, boyfriend (now fiance), and family
  2. being able to travel (a lot) especially to England
  3. Coming back to the Church and being able to speak and share my story at a retreat in the fall

3 Words to Describe this Year

  1. Busy
  2. Blest
  3. Renewed

My Favorite Things

Favorite Song: “Despacito” by Luis Fonsi, Daddy Yankee, Justin Beber (don’t judge me)

Favorite Movie: Wonder Woman

Favorite Book: All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr

Favorite TV Show: Parks & Rec

Favorite Place: “Top of the World” in Laguna Beach, CA

Favorite Activity: Working out

Monthly Reviews

January

February

March

April

May

June

July

August

September

October 

November

December

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Bring on 2018!

*I used this page as a template for this post

December Days

You’ll see why I was SO glad I could have a little time off from work the last week of December. It was a month full of parties and celebrations. Stress and joy. What a great way to end an amazing 2017!

Christmas decorating
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Celebrated dad’s birthday by going out to lunch and then the Kimbell Art Museum​

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Christmas concert at church with my dad and fiancé, J

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Young Adult Advent Retreat at church

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J’s colleague’s Christmas house party

Painting with a Twist with Friends

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Family Birthday Party

Hosted a Christmas Party for people who support us at work

California – J’s company holiday party, lunch in Manhattan Beach, then had dinner at Blue Plate Taco in Santa Monica. Hiking and lunch at Laguna Beach the next day Whew!

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Manhattan Beach
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Manhattan Beach
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Manhattan Beach
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Santa Monica
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Santa Monica
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Santa Monica
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Grilled Fish Tacos
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“Top of the World” – Laguna Beach
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Laguna Beach
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Grilled Shrimp Salad from The Cliff Restaurant
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Laguna Beach
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Laguna Beach

J’s company’s (local office) holiday dinner at his favorite steak house

My office’s Christmas party (where I could actually enjoy as an attendee)

Christmas Eve/Christmas Day Celebrations with the family – dinner, mass, Christmas light viewing, and presents

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Our First Christmas Together
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New Luggage for our Upcoming Adventures!

Celebrating the season with friends. I had been so busy with work, family, and travel the past few months that I hadn’t gotten to see my friends in awhile, so it was nice to catch up!

NYE – Saw Star Wars: The Last Jedi, then kept it simple at J’s mom’s house with family and friends, playing a new game I got for Christmas, “What do you Meme?”

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Movies/TV
Luther, Season 1
Elf
Christmas Vacation
The Santa Clause
The Crown, Season 1 (re-watched) 
White Christmas
The Christmas Card
Love Actually
Home Alone 2

Books
The Soul of the Apostolate by Jean-Baptiste Chautard (reading for work)
Better than Before​ by Gretchen Rubin
All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr

What were the Highlights of your December?